I am going through a phase where I do not feel close to Jesus at all.
Yet I am super-interested in philosophy, theology, liturgy, etc.
I guess I am going through a Dork Night of the Soul.
My joke has a grain of truth as far as it goes. I have never had a pietistic emotional attachment to Jesus. More of an intellectual attachment to Christ. One that only grows in my certitude. I would like it if my emotions lined up with my intellect (such as it is), but still am filled with thankfulness and gratitude to where he has brought me so far. So being too abstract intellectually is a cross for me, especially as I read the various Carmelite saints.
